Day Whatever.

Day Twenty Five.

 Today hopefully will be the day that I post all the previous entries, unedited. I've been probably out for around a month and alot of thoughts have been brewing in my head. Nothing too dramatic just alot of thinking under the green influence, which I'm trying to remove from my lifestyle. Thinking constantly about life, work, happiness and women. Where I'm going and what keeps by center balanced. I am no where close to finding what it is I'm looking for, although some aspects of my life have begun to perk up. These weeks off of writing, I've seen the difference between when I do write and when I don't. Staying positive and on track, as opposed to whatever I feel like doing. Structure is what I was missing, I don't have it and am still working on it.

I have given alot of thought to the situation that I put myself in. Kinda like the jaded version of me, but on percaset.

Released 6/17/09

Day Twenty Four.

 Not much to say these days. I seem to write, think and live better when I wrote in this thing daily. I know I have fallen off track and lost my concentration on my goals and aspirations. It's funny how routine keeps yourself and your goals in line. Yet, we all try to spice up our own lives with spontaneous actions or random occurances to make our lives a bit more interesting. Hobbies, events, anything to break the monotony of daily work and routine just to escape, even for a brief moment.

I use to have a quota for writing and now I realize that, it's just silly. Write for the sake of writing.

This entry has been permitted for public notice 6/17/09.

Day Twenty Three.

 ... and we're back!

So why have I been MIA for the past two weeks? Simply put, I've been swamped with work. As lame as it sounds, I hate using work as an excuse for not doing something, but it is true. With my mother on vacation for the next month, coupled up with real work, I have to work almost everyday. Leaving nearly no time for anyone or anything. Not that I've got a shitload of activities lined up, but to do basic errands are starting to become difficult. I also started to wane off my strict eating diet along with my no weekday smoking policy. Which was a strong reason for me to stop writing, it tends to clog my thoughs and give me writers block at times.

The TD five boro is now behind me and biking has become more and more scarce in terms of availability. I've wanted to bike to work as often as possible and have only managed to do it once this entire month. It is a great workout in the morning, but requires preparation time. In terms of clothing, sleep and the weather. Having to prepare what to wear the night before does save me a good amount of time, cause like a woman it takes me forever to pick out what to wear. I always have that feeling that I'm going to forget something when I leave the house. One of the drawbacks of biking into work means that I have to cycle it back home afterwards, I don't see it as a bad thing, I get the most out of my workouts and always have the option of taking the tube back home. I also won't get the morning opportunity to write in this as often a I would like.

I am always amazed how people can manage their schedules so well in order to fit everything they want to do in the span of a week. I suppose it really depends on oneself and their time management skills. It really makes me take a look at myself when I'm at work. Being a project manager I'm suppose to be proficient with scheduling, funny, cause I can barely keep track of my own life let along other peoples schedule?

- Service Notice: Please post on 6/9 and forever forward.

Sorry for the hold folks, things need to be sorted out in my head at the moment.

will post as soon as possible, stay tuned.